I feel this so much. And I did the same thing last night. I had many glasses of wine so I could banish the isolation. Within 90 minutes of going to bed I was awake - this always happens when I drink. And my restless dreams were soul crushing. And today will not be great.

It's good to know I'm not alone in this (I see the irony in this). And I'm so grateful that you put a voice to this struggle.